im not okay.

Unbelievable.

It breaks my heart to see the person you've become..
to see the person that you are.
It breaks my heart to find that your heart is now missing...
that nothing about us or what we were has meaning to you anymore.
How you seem to think that a picture that's closed and on its side is the same no matter where you put it...without even considering how it makes me feel.
How you seem to not care because you just dont feel like it.
Out of all people I'd figure you'd understand that you feel regardless if you care about it or not.
Isnt that what broke us?

It breaks my heart to see that..I've become that insignificant to you.
And how you think its fine.

It's truly unbelievable.

Impulse

I was up because I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't sleep because:

1. I was still jetlagged
2. I was crying for the same reason I've been crying for so long now

but that's not the focus of this post. I saw someone on facebook that I've noticed has been staying up a lot lately. And even though I have some weird situation with this person I impulsively im-ed this person. It turned out to be an interesting conversation. It's definitely made me feel a little better at least..it's relieve a little stress in my life. What else can you hope for from a random conversation?

It started off as an impulse, but it became a pleasant result.
something different happened today.
who knows, maybe more different things will occur.

Time to go
this is goodbye he said
does it ever get easier to live like this
and kiss the cheek
i cant kiss you anymore.